Carpe diem

Where did all the 99 days flew by?  Damn, I have so much to write about in this particular post and I am at a loss of words. A Hundred Days of showing up, even when I had zero energy and creative space, even when I was sick or had exams, even through the tears and happiest days. I did show up for myself. And that is all I wanted from this little experiment. (Okay, I did miss a few days but I will not hold myself against it)  Writing for me has always been the eigenquestion. I put my thoughts down on a paper or in a blog post et voila! Clarity makes its way into my life. Somewhere down the line I gave up on writing and that did mess up my mind quite a bit. But now I am pretty sure I can handle things better. Being consistent does not always have to be perfect, it was all about reminding myself that we only put one foot in front of the other and keep walking without thinking twice.  I used to check the page view count earlier just to see how many are reading the post. The r...

 Sri Rama Navami Subhakankshalu! Now is probably a good time for me to learn to play with the cards you have been dealt,and not crib about my situation. That is exactly what Lord Rama does, right? It is not that easy to stay away from home, especially during festivals. But the show must go on and I did make vadapappu and chalimidi (not as well as my ammamma does, but hey, it is my first time!) I know I have been away from this blog as well. Sorry about that. I guess I was emotionally attached to the concept of writing here every day and did not want it to end at all. Just like all good things come to an end, this too has to. And honestly, writing every day does get difficult, and I run out of topics to write about quite frequently.  What made me come back today? Because there has been an issue that was eating away at my brain, and it could not be a more perfect day than Rama Navami. You must have heard of Padmasri Bapu gaaru in one way or another if you are a Telugu native. If...

Is it just me or the World Cup win this time is not as exciting as it was the last time? Is this the Law of Diminishing Marginal Utility at work? Anyway, we won! And the boys performed really well, Insha Allah. And that's Day 98 for you!

 Since childhood, I was not very good at dealing with silence. I need a constant BGM running in my life, and that is how music has become a huge part of my personality. Add to that my amma and her obsession with the radio. Over the years, I have come to appreciate the words better and have a newfound respect for lyricists. I practically grew up on the elixirs brewed by Veturi, Sirivennela, Gulzar and Javed Akhtar.   Vividha Bharathi has a program specially dedicated to the Indian Armed Forces - Jaimala, and I would listen to it on the weekends while finishing up my homework or studying for a test. Back when I was a kid, there was one song that would be played on that show consistently. Ghar Kab Aaoge from Border. Maybe it was the repetition or the lyrics or the tune or just Sonu Nigam's magic, but that song is still fresh in my memory. Our home in West Marredpally is pretty close to the Army Ordnance Corps Centre (AOC Centre) of the Secunderabad Cantonment, one of the lar...

Low key disappointed that the POTM award was not given to Jasprit Bumrah for being the hero we do not deserve. Not taking away the credit from Sanju Samson though, I almost forgot that I was in Sweden and cheered for him with a lot of fist pumps while he batted. People who saw me doing that would have been concerned, for sure. But what a crazy match it was man! The best part of all was the Wankhede crowd. All heart! I guess, everyone should take a leaf out of that amazing city and keep the spirits high even when the tides are against us. Goosebumps moment. I really hope Ahmedabad will be kind this time and we get to lift the cup one more time. Sunday, I cannot wait for you. And that's Day 96 for you!

Today is the lunar eclipse and I came across something that was interesting. Well, you may not agree with it, in a lot of cultures and traditions, an eclipse is symbol of change. And I felt that today. Could be confirmation bias too, but hey, it was interesting in my head. This is more like a dear diary thing for me. Sweden is not for the light hearted and I am slowly getting accustomed here. In 30 years of my life I have never been truly all by myself for this long. I have always had friends and family around me and that shaped my personality to a major extent. Being alone is not the problem here but feeling lonely is and I was absolutely confident that I can happily deal with it. Boy, was I wrong! There is this notion that you cannot expect your partner to be the one fulfilling all your needs. I have read about it so many times and today I understood what it meant practising that. Running back home every time I feel home sick felt like putting a bandage over a fracture. Building a so...